Write about Something You Struggle With.

This is pretty easy.  I definitely struggle with anxiety. I didn't realize it until I became a Mom, when life got "real".  I don't remember having anxiety as a child or a teenager, but it seemed to develop the older I got.  It can be crippling at times.  There was a time in my life when I would dread even "happy events" because I would think of all these possible scenarios that could happen to ruin it.  It took me a long to realize that at times I need help with it.  During this pandemic it reared it's ugly head again and I can honestly tell you there were days my husband had to pick me up off the floor because the panic attacks were so bad.  A week into the pandemic and social distancing I had a really bad day where I honestly felt like I was coming out of my own skin. That's the only way to describe it. It was an awful feeling, I was shaking, and couldn't sit still and no matter how hard I tried I could not control the anxiety.  Lucikly I have a friend, who is more like family, who also has her own battles with anxiety.  Between her and my husband I was able to calm down and in the morning made a virtual doctor's appointment at the walk in clinic.  After talking to a very nice doctor, she indeed said it was anxiety and prescribed me something to calm my nerves.  A week later I talked to my own doc and he concurred that I just need something to take the edge of.  Thankfully, I am feeling better, not myself yet, but better.  

I have also been using the resources the government of Manitoba have implemented to help with anxiety (apparently I'm not alone ;) ) .  My sister is a yoga instructor and has also helped me immensely with her online yoga and meditation classes.  I'm pretty much trying everything I can, to help me feel like myself.  I know so many people out there are also struggling .  Let's face it, the whole world is gripped with fear over Covid-19 and we are all in this together.  There is no shame in saying "I am not coping well", or "I just don't feel like myself".  I'm so glad I was able to recognize what and how I was feeling and have the resources at my finger tips to help me deal with it.

If you are feeling anxious, or scared or simply having trouble coping through this awful time, here are a few links that may help you.  I honestly don't think anyone is even reading my blog, but if you stumble upon it, and need some help - these are great resources:





Be Well.